As Simple As This

I need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer.

Sit, good dog, stay, bad dog, down, roll over
Well here's a good man and a pretty young girl
Trying to play together somehow,
I'm wasting my life, you're changing the world,
I get drunk and watch your head grow

It's the good times that we share
and the bad times that we'll have
It's the good times
and the bad times that we had

Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog

So I need some fine wine, and you, YOU NEED TO BE NICER
For the good times and the bad times
That we'll have...

Much Too Much

'When you were a kid, it was candy. You hid it from your parents and ate it until you got sick.
In college, it was the heavy combo of youth, tequila and well, you know...
As you grow older, you take as much of the good as you can get because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. 'Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing.

How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon? Too much information? Too much fun? Too much love? Too much to ask? And when is it all just TOO MUCH TO BEAR?'

(GA, s02, ep10)


Mindy Smith - Peace Of Mind

In The Midnight Hour

'Nightmare: also known as a "bad dream", is an unpleasant dream. Nightmares cause strong unpleasant emotional responses from the sleeper, typically fear or horror. The dream may contain situation(s) of danger, discomfort, or psychological or physical distress. Such dreams can be related to physical causes such as a high fever; in an uncomfortable or awkward position; stress or post-traumatic experiences. Sometimes there may not readily be an explanation. Sleepers may be woken in a state of distress, and be unable to get back to sleep for some time.'
(source: Wikipedia)

'When you're little, night time is scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed.
When you get older, the monsters are different... self doubt, loneliness, regret... and though you may be older and wiser, you still find yourself scared of the dark.

Sleep. It's the easiest thing to do.
You just... close your eyes.
But for so many of us, sleep seems out of our grasp. We want it, but we don't know how to get it. But once we face our demons, face our fears, and turn to each other for help, night time is not so scary, because we realize WE ARE NOT ALL ALONE IN THE DARK...'

(GA, s05, ep9)

Staring At The Sun

It's here... Finally here...
The prayers have been answered.
(mine, at least)
I had a dream of Californication.
Or California.
Or some sun, for fuck's sake.
And it's here.

... as Hank Moody would better utter this:
"I like it here, it's nice. The sun is chirping, the birds are shining, the water is wet. Life is good, sweetheart! Life is good."

So enjoy this sunny day! Call friends you haven't spoken to in ages, take a walk outside and see that things are starting to look a bit better ;)
Blink, and you'll miss it.

...

'I'm not just deaf and dumb
Staring at the sun
I'm not the only one
Who's happy to go blind'

Damage Case

'We all go through life like a bull in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done, or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix it. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.

We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grownups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, WE SET ABOUT THE BUSINESS OF FIXING WHATEVER WE CAN.'

(GA, s02, ep24)

With a special thought for my damaged friends, and the following message: "Nothing lasts forever, even cold January snow".


Coldplay - Fix you

Family Affairs

'It's an urban myth that suicide rates spike at the holidays. Turns out they actually go down. Experts think it's because people are less inclined to off themselves when surrounded by family. Ironically, that same family togetherness is thought to be the reason that depression rates actually do spike at the holidays.

There's an old proverb that says you can't choose your family. You take what the fates hand you. And like them or not, love them or not, understand them or not, you cope. Then there's the school of thought that says that the family you're born into is simply a starting point. They feed you, they clothe you and take care of you until you're ready to go out into the world and find your tribe.'

(GA, s02, ep12)

On this topic, I do have one personal thought that goes like this: Families that make you check the train timetables every two hours gotta be the best, right? I mean, they prevent you from getting bored :D

Everybody Deserves Clean Water

'It’s a funny thing about the modern world. You hear the girls in the toilets of clubs saying, ‘Yeah, he fucked off and left me. He didn’t love me. He just couldn’t deal with love. He was too fucked up to know how to love me.’
Now, how did that happen? What was it about this unlovable century that convinced us we were, despite everything, eminently lovable as a people, as a species? What made us think that anyone who fails to love us is damaged, lacking, malfunctioning in some way? And particularly if they replace us with a god, or a weeping madonna, or the face of Christ in a ciabatta roll - then we call them crazy. We are so convinced of the goodness of ourselves, and the goodness of our love, we cannot bear to believe that there might be something more worthy of love than us, more worthy of worship. Greetings cards routinely tell us everybody deserves love. No. Everybody deserves clean water. NOT EVERYBODY DESERVES LOVE AT ALL TIME.'

(Zadie Smith, White Teeth)

9 Crimes

'Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse...'

Sugar Town

'I got some troubles but they won't last
I'm gonna lay right down here in the grass
And pretty soon all my troubles will pass
'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

I never had a dog that liked me some
Never had a friend or wanted one
So I just lay back and laugh at the sun
'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town.'

Yeah, I decided that this will be my new plan: I'm gonna live in fucking Sugar Town.


Zooey Deschanel - Sugar Town (Bonus Track)

Tears Dry On Their Own

'I don't understand why do I stress the man
When there's so many better things at hand
We could have never had it all
So we had to hit the wall
So this is inevitable withdrawal
Even if I stop wanting you
A perspective pushes through
I'll be some next man's other woman soon
I cannot play myself again
I should just be my own best friend
NOT FUCK MYSELF IN THE HEAD WITH STUPID MEN!'

(...!)

This

This is what you should have done.
This is what you should have said.
This is what you should have
This is what you should have
This this this this this this


Prince - Purple Rain

Karma Police

'Okay, so, sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're going to regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean, maybe not regret, regret because at least, you know, WE PUT OURSELVES OUT THERE. But... still. Something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know will probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway. What I'm saying is...we reap what we sow. What comes around goes around. It's karma and, any way you slice it... karma sucks.

One way or another our karma will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another, our karma will always find us. No matter how hard we try we can't escape it. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass... well, it goes without saying. WE DO IT ANYWAY.'

(GA, s02, ep19)

Band-Aid Covers The Bullet Hole

Friends.
In life, friends are inevitable. No matter where you go and what you do, you always seem to get someone there to help you and guide you, especially in time of need. And even if there's that time when you feel like shit and you don't deserve anything, it's important to remember that you have those few people that actually care, or pretend to do so (fuck knows), and who will stay with you when you hit that wall, go crazy and lose control.
My point is: no one likes to lose control. For a control freak, such as myself, 'it’s a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize your shiny little brain isn’t gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it’s scary as hell. Except there’s an upside to free-falling. It’s the chance you give your FRIENDS TO CATCH YOU'.

(GA, s02, ep03)

(They are the band-aid in this case ;)

You Can't Always Get What You Want

'And I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of Chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.'
Or call.
Or text.
Or something.
A simple sign to show you that you're in his thoughts.
Of course, that never happens.
Cry yourself to sleep for several nights, and after that, take a deep breath.
And start breathing normally again.
Face the tears, face the pain.
And take the next small step.

Looks Are Deceiving

'The most important thing is that you're constantly hoping you're wrong.
And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it.
And every time he comes through and surprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you.
And on top of that there's the old standby "I can't believe a guy like that would actually be with a GIRL LIKE ME".'

(Iris Simpkins, The Holiday)


No Doubt- Bathwater

Don't Let Us Get Sick

'Here we are', she thought, 'at the edge of the world, the very edge of the western civilization, and all of us are so desperate to feel something, anything, that we keep falling into each other and fucking our way towards the end of days.'

*Californication, s01

Reason Enough?!

'YoumakemesickbecauseIadoreyouso...
Iloveallthedirtytricksandtwistedgamesyouplayonme.'

(Muse - Space Dementia)

The Self-Destruct Button

'Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I don’t know, maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying?... Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop!'

(GA, s01, ep07)


Muse - Blackout
Asculta mai multe audio Muzica

Bring The Pain

'Pain. It comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain that we live with everyday. Then there is the kind of pain you just can’t ignore, a level of pain that blocks out everything else, makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us, the best way to manage pain is just push through it.

Pain. You just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope that the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it, and LIFE ALWAYS MAKES MORE.'

(GA, s02,ep5)


Damien Rice - Sleep Don't Weep

Love/Addiction

'We see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it was just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.

The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you are there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes, LETTING IT GO HURTS EVEN WORSE.'
(GA, s04, ep1 - Love/Addiction)

How do you know when you hit rock bottom?
There should be a line, like a barrier or something, that should state: "You are hitting rock bottom. Please return to safety mode."
I think it's you who should decide which is your barrier. The border between normal/addictive. There's gotta be that tiny little drop that'll make the glass spill and it will make you open your eyes. It just takes a longer time for some of us to get there, but when you're finally there... the pain caused from the split is the only natural thing to follow. And they do say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Anyway, my point is: take your time. Don't force yourself to hit that rock bottom. It'll happen, sooner or later. Life takes care of that, don't worry :)

Back To Black

'Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black'

Only The Lonely

I've just read my horoscope... I'm suppose to feel lonely today. How about yesterday? And the day before that? The time I've spent in bed, not wanting to move or talk to anyone or crying my heart out and feeling really lonely and depressed. Come on! Come ooon!! Come on! Here it is:

"You just don't feel like getting out there and mixing it up socially, even if you've got obligations or a mate who wants you to join them. It's a good time to follow individual pursuits, if possible.
Mood: Lonely
Lucky Color: Silver
Lucky Time of Day: 8am"

Interpretation:
Mood: Lonely since... oh, just lonely!
Lucky Color: not my thing, this silver stuff.
Lucky Time of Day: sleeping at that hour... How lucky could that have been?

But a beer should help. A drink always helps (One of my favorite sayings "Alcohol is not the SOLUTION, but it's a good substitute"). So, in spite of this crap the horoscope states, I'm gonna go out and say goodbye to my favorite pub in Or, because I'm leaving for Tm tomorrow.

And Then Again...

After careful consideration, and a call from last night... This is one of the ways in which I would describe the end of 2009 (for me).

'At any given moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don't have control over most of them. When we get a chill, goose bumps. When we get excited...adrenaline. The body naturally follows it's impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control, that we later wish we had.
The body is a slave to it's impulses. But the thing that makes us human is what we can control. After the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed...we can cool off and clean up the messes we've made. We can try to let go of what was. And then again...'

(GA, season 3, ep 2 - I Am A Tree)

The beginning

There are some things I must state at the beginning of this post. I'm not an original person. Never was and never will be, as far as I'm concerned. But I do know one thing: I have my friends telling me I'm a freaking walking encyclopedia when it comes to quotes and sayings... songs or almost anything other people say. So... this is what I'm gonna do here, on this blog. Each day, when something happens, I'm gonna post a relevant quote or song. It'll be my way of dealing with life... or something like it (can't help myself, already quoted the title of a movie :d)
Just hope it'll help me, because at this point in my existence, I'm pretty fucked up... and I could really use some time for myself. Unfortunately, it's not the case... But this blog will do the trick.
Do wish me luck!