For Auld Lang Syne, My Jo

"Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne."

And yes... I think they should.

Luggage Limit

‎"There's a luggage limit for every passenger on a flight. Same rule applies to your life. You must eliminate some luggage in order to fly."

Now, doesn't this sound extremely wise, considering the fact that today is the day before the last day of this year?

To leave a woman unfinished,

in bed and in drawing, is such a shameful job, indeed it is. It's like that poor woman who's missing an eye or an ear, maybe, cannot find her peace until that last element of the picture is placed in its proper, natural course of things.

Don't (II)

I could say I blame you for everything
Instead I think I'll recognize my part...
Needing doesn't hide who I want to be,
But dont fuck me in front of me.

All About Eve

"We all come into this world with our little egos equipped with individual horns. If we don't blow them, who else will?"

(Addison DeWitt, All About Eve)

and also, the "Fasten your seatbelts, it's going to be a bumpy night!" line. (by Margo Channing, marvelously played by Bette Davis)

Yes, It's Christmas

Oh my love we've had our share of tears
Oh my friend we've had our hopes and fears
Oh my friends it's been a long hard year
But now it's Christmas
Yes it's Christmas
Thank God it's Christmas

The moon and stars seem awful cold and bright
Let's hope the snow will make this Christmas right
My friend the world will share this special night
Because it's Christmas
Yes it's Christmas
Thank God it's Christmas
For one night...

Depression

'When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered a few feet off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and it's time to admit that you have bewildered yourself so far off the path that you don't even know from which direction the sun rises anymore. I took on my depression like it was the fight of my life, which, of course, it was. I became a student of my own depressed experience, trying to unthread its causes.
What was the root of all this despair?
Was it psychological? (Mom and Dad's fault?)
Was it just temporal, a "bad time" in my life? (When the divorce ends, will the depression end with it?)
Was it genetic? (Melancholy, called by many names, has run through my family for generations, along with its sad bride, Alcoholism.)
Was it cultural? (Is this just the fallout of a post feminist American career girl trying to find balance in an increasingly stressful and alienating urban world?)
Was it astrological? (Am I so sad because I'm a thin-skinned Cancer whose major signs are all ruled by unstable Gemini?)
Was it artistic? (Don't creative people always suffer from depression because we're so supersensitive and special?)
Was it evolutionary? (Do I carry in me the residual panic that comes after millennia of my species' attempting to survive a brutal world?)
Was it karmic? (Are all these spasms of grief just the consequences of bad behavior in previous lifetimes, the last obstacles before liberation?)
Was it hormonal? Dietary? Philosophical? Seasonal? Environmental?
Was I tapping into a universal yearning for God?
Did I have a chemical imbalance?
Or did I just need to get laid?
What a large number of factors constitute a single human being! How very many layers we operate on, and how very many influences we receive from our minds, our bodies, our histories, our families, our cities, our souls and our lunches!'

(Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love)

Morning Revelation

'Another illusion is that external events have the power to hurt you, that other people have the power to hurt you. They DON'T. It's you who give this power to them...'

*anonymous

A Lady In Need

I came to one a corner, with some help from a man and goddamn... I don’t seem to have learned that a lady IN NEED is guilty indeed... So I paid and got laid in return.

(And I don’t know what I’ve learned)

The Day Before The Day

"I didn't get to say goodbye the day before the day.
I was trying to get to work on time, that's why I turned away,
And missed the most important thing you've ever tried to say..."

Don't

I can understand all that you are, I can even take all that you're not... I can simpathize with all you want to be, but don't fuck me in front of me.

Je partirai

"Faudra pas que tu t'en étonnes, je partirai.
Je ne veux déranger personne : je partirai.
Tu sais, parfois il faut casser,
Casser des cœurs et des idées.
Les numéros de téléphone, faut les changer, oui."

Adrift And At Peace

"The goal of any surgery is total recovery; to come out better than you were before. Some patients heal quickly and feel immediate relief. For others the healing happens gradually. And it’s not until months or even years later that you realize you don’t hurt anymore. So the challenge after any surgery is to be patient. But if you can make it through the first weeks and months, if you believe that healing is possible, then you get your life back! But that’s a big IF..."

(GA, s07, ep10)

Let The Truth Sting

"The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home.
Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give.
Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves.
And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves.
Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much."

(GA, s04, ep03)

Winter Song

I still believe in summer days.
The seasons always change
and life will find a way.
I’ll be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
so we can start again.
Is love alive?

(Winter Song)

Sara Bareilles and Ingrid Michaelson - "Winter Song"

Solitude, Say You?

You're One Hundred Years of Solitude!
by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Lonely and struggling, you've been around for a very long time.Conflict has filled most of your life and torn apart nearly everyone you know. Yet thereis something majestic and even epic about your presence in the world. You love life allthe more for having seen its decimation. After all, it takes a village.
Take the Book Quizat the Blue Pyramid.

Tonight's Revelation

People are always saying that change is a good thing. But all they're really saying is that something you didn't want to happen at all... HAS HAPPENED.

Losing My Mind

'Don't wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don't.
In the face of all we could lose in a day... in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that makes us HOLD IT TOGETHER.'

(GA, s04, ep15)

Maroon 5 - Losing My Mind

With You I'm Born Again

'When we say things like "People don’t change" it drives scientists crazy, because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy, matter - it’s always changing. Morphing, merging, growing, dying. It’s the way people try not to change that’s unnatural.
The way we cling to what things were, instead of letting them be what they are...
The way we cling to old memories, instead of forming new ones.
The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent.

Change is constant. How we experience change, that’s up to us. It can feel like death... or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it... it can feel like pure adrenaline.
Like at any moment we can have another chance at life.
Like at any moment we can be BORN ALL OVER AGAIN.'

(GA, s07, ep1)

The Scientist

"Nobody said it was easy...
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard...

Oh take me back to the start!"

Where You Lead

I will follow...

Carole King - Where you lead


and I miss 'em already... guess it's time I find myself a new addiction.

Naked Truth

Dark and twisty?! I'm not dark and twisty. And if I am, it's because I live my life under a banner of avoidance. I avoid. I'm an AVOIDER.

Sheldon Says,

"You bought me a present? Why would you do such a thing? I know you think you're being generous, but the foundation of gift giving is reciprocity. You haven't given me a gift, you've given me an obligation. The essence of the custom is that I now have to go out and purchase for you a gift of commensurate value and representing the same perceived level of friendship as that represented by the gift you've given me. Ah, it's no wonder suicide rates skyrocket this time of year. Oh, I brought this on myself by being such an endearing and important part of your life..."

(The Big Bang Theory)

The Heart Of The Matter

'In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions are, you are going to make mistakes.
You're going to hurt people.
You're going to get hurt.
And if you ever want to recover... there's really only one thing you can say.

Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical.
When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back.
When someone wrongs us, we want to be right.
Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled... old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we'll be LUCKY ENOUGH TO FORGET.'

(GA, s04, ep4)

DON HENLEY - Heart Of The Matter

It's Coming on Christmas...

"It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on!

But it don't snow here,
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I COULD SKATE AWAY ON..."

Joni Mitchell - River

Shock To The System

'Lightning doesn’t often strike twice. It’s an “once-in-a-lifetime” thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again… eventually, the pain will go away, and the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself, to recover from something you never saw coming. But sometimes, the odds are in your favor. If you’re in just the right place at just the right time… you can take a hell of a hit and still have a SHOT AT SURVIVING.'

(GA, s07, ep2)

Sheldon Says,

'No cuts, no buts, no coconuts!'

(The Big Bang Theory)

Happily Ever After?

'We all remember the bedtime stories of our childhoods; the shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turns into a Prince, Sleeping Beauty is awakened with a kiss. Once upon a time and then they lived happily ever after. Fairytales, the stuff of dreams...
The problem is, fairytales don't come true. It's the other stories, the ones that begin with dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable, it's the nightmares that always seem to become reality. The person who invented "Happily Ever After" should have his ass kicked, so hard.'

(GA, s05, ep01)

Andy Warhol said,

"Everybody is entitled to 15 minutes of fame!"

... I've just had mine.

Dreams

Dreams. Random quotes:

"Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you." (Marsha Norman)

"Dream as if you'll live forever! Live as if you'll die tomorrow!" (James Dean)

"Dreams are like stars... You may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny." (Anonymous)

"All of us failed to match our dreams of perfection. So I rate us on the basis of our splendid failure to do the impossible." (William Faulkner)

Movie Marathon II

What better reason for a new movie marathon than a post break-up therapy? These are the choices:

The Taming Of The Shrew (1967)

Zeffirelli’s rendition of the famous Shakespearian play, with a cast that basically assures the success of the motion picture: the astonishing shrew Elizabeth Taylor meets her equal in Richard Burton. All we have to do is sit back and enjoy the fireworks!

Barefoot In The Park (1967)

Another classic of the American cinematography, it’s the gorgeous adaptation of Neil Simon’s homonymous play, with the young Robert Redford and exhilarant Jane Fonda.

Under The Tuscan Sun (2003)

The perfect soothing balm for a broken heart, the best medicine after a break-up! Nevertheless, one must not forget the beauty of the Tuscan landscape! Diane Lane is a great choice for the divorced middle-aged woman, who has nothing to lose, but everything to gain.

You’ve Got Mail (1998)

Such a pretty story and such a great city! I had to see it once again, because life in NY in the autumn is simply breathtaking. And there’s plenty of chemistry between America’s Sweetheart Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks, to assure that one will rest melancholic after watching the movie. And with a crush on New York!

Good Night, Dear Void!

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."

(You've Got Mail)

Photo by Radu Micu

Heavy

"I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down...
When he had me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground.

I'm so heavy, heavy in your arms."

Sheldon Says,

'If IFS and BUTS were candy and nuts we'd all have a Merry Christmas!'

(The Big Bang Theory)

Easier

"Anyhow, I'm fine. I mean, not that I'm over it, but little by little it's getting easier to pretend it's easier, which means easier must be right around the corner."

Gilmore Girls

November (Rain)

Nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain.

Non me lo so spiegare

"Io non piango mai per te, non faro' niente di simile no mai...
Si lo ammetto un po' ti penso ma mi scanso non mi tocchi piu'..."


Tiziano Ferro ft. Laura Pausini - Non me lo so spiegare

Demented. Self-absorbed. Vain.

"Larry: You think I'm just gonna sit back and wait for you to get with the program? You might be afraid of all this Ally, but I'm... I'm not.
Ally: Larry, you've only seen the tip of the neurotic ice berg. I'm demented.
Larry: What else?
Ally: Self-absorbed.
Larry: What else?
Ally: Vain.
Larry: What else?
Ally: Beautiful. That's a good thing.
Larry: What else?
Ally: Maybe incapable of letting myself be loved.
Larry: That we need to work on, then.
Ally: Do you have any idea what you're getting yourself into? I'm afraid to trust it.
Larry: Then we need to work on that too."

*s04

Walk On

'Leave it behind
You got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress-up
All that you scheme...'

Trois lettres destinées à mes victimes et à la vie 03

3. A mademoiselle Sens, rue de la « Passion »

Les regards dévorants et les mains inconnues qui caressaient ton sexe représentent maintenant pour toi des images qui n’éveillent plus tes sens. Tu aimais l’odeur des parfums chers et raffinés des clients qui cherchaient la volupté dans tes bras ; maintenant tu ne sens que le parfum de la mort, un souffle repoussant et froid qui traverse tous les pores de ta peau inanimée. Tu rêves d’être touchée encore une fois, mais la mort t’enveloppe en ailes de goudron. Les vers caressent ta chair, mais elle te blâme pour ne l’avoir pas laissée gémir sous le frôlement tendre de ces nouveaux inconnus. Qu’aurais-tu pu représenter pour la vie ? Justement ce que tu venais de dire ! Tu n’étais qu’une tranche de chair dont tous, ceux qui voulaient, ont satisfait leurs fantaisies sexuelles. Tu te vendais pour pouvoir vivre… Tu tenais à ton statut de « marchandise » et tu te sentais à l’aise en négociant ta féminité. Croyais-tu avoir toujours le même corps dont tu sois fière ?
Tu pourras dire que je t’ai rendu une faveur : j’ai effacé ton avenir si indésirable. Je t’ai frayé un nouveau chemin.
Qui sait, il se peut que tu trouves des clients même là-bas…

(Ecrit par Laura Raicu, une chère amie!)

Trois lettres destinées à mes victimes et à la vie 02

2. A une jeune fille de dix-huit ans, numéro 0, rue de l’« Incertitude »

Les cheveux bruns sont en harmonie parfaite avec ton visage blanc, froid, sans vie. Je mérite ta reconnaissance. Je t’ai sauvée, je t’ai tirée d’un mauvais pas : du suicide. Tu dois m’en être reconnaissante. Je t’ai aidée à répondre aux plus terribles questions de la vie : vaut-il la peine que je vive ? Et si je me coupe les veines ? Et si je prends tous ces médicaments ? Et si je ne meurs pas et que j’aie la malchance d’arriver a l’hôpital ? Toutes les choses vont-elles changer en mieux ? Je te dirais – rien ne sera en ta faveur, personne ne sera auprès de toi. Tes parents continueront de te considérer une folle femme capricieuse et ils ne te comprendront jamais (crois-moi, ils auront encore une raison pour te proposer un psychiatre) ; tes collègues seront toujours les imbéciles et ils ne cesseront pas de se moquer de plus en plus de toi, jusqu’à ce que tu finisses à souhaiter leur mort ; les professeurs vont te traiter de la sorte – une rebelle, une inadaptable, un parasite de la société, une femme sans avenir. Tu es une cause perdue !
Tu disais que tout ce que tu fais est erroné. Même ton suicide aurait été une erreur. Mais pourquoi ? Parce-que tu aurais joui de la publicité – imagine-toi les titres des journaux : « Une jeune femme de dix-huit ans se coupe les veines dans la toilette du lycée ». Tu serais sortie de cet anonymat que tu adores ; on aurait parlé seulement de ton histoire, même les inconnus. Rien de plus dégoûtant : tout le monde sera au courant de ton échec derrière un soi-disant « acte de courage ».
Je t’ai éloigné de l’obscurité de la vie,
Je t’ai fait ouvrir les yeux et
J’ai chassé ton incertitude.
Tu as encore à faire une seule chose :

RIRE DE CEUX QUI EVITENT LA MORT !

(Ecrit par Laura Raicu, une chère amie)

Trois lettres destinées à mes victimes et à la vie

1. A monsieur l'avocat de la rue « Justice », n'importe quel numéro.

Qu'est-ce que le monde ? Que sommes-nous, en fait, nous les gens ? Tout est un jeu... et toi, tu as perdu ! Tu as perdu ta femme, ton lieu de travail, l'argent, le prestige, ta vie... Oui, tu as perdu ! La seule chose que tu aies gagnée, c'est moi. Tu m'as gagné, tu as gagné le droit de mourir avant de te rendre compte de l'ordure où tu es, de la misère où tu vas te débattre avant de voir les papiers du divorce avec sa signature en bas de la page, avant de compter les derniers sous, avant de te voir humilié par tes anciens collègues. Je suis le seul que tu puisses remercier, parce qu'en effet je t'ai volé tout, mais, je t'ai donné la chance de mourir vite et inconsciemment.
Tu te demandes peut-être ce qui va se passer à ton enterrement... si tu auras une bonne ou mauvaise mine... qui va pleurer... qui va regretter que tu les aies quittés ? Même moi, j’en suis curieux : qui vraiment ? Ta femme, après l’avoir trouvée habillée d’une manière indécente, au lit, avec ton meilleur ami ? Qui ? Le président du barreau qui t’a mis à la porte pour n’avoir pas voulu faire son jeu pendant le procès de ce jeune homme ? Le voisin de vis-à-vis ? La serveuse du café où tu lis ton journal chaque jour ? C’est toi, seulement toi qui auras pitié de toi-même ! Tu vas essayer de trouver quelque chose de bon dans tout ce que tu as perdu : une vie comblée de rêves, un chemin qui n’a aucun sens. Maintenant tu essaies de trouver des réponses et des coupables pour ce que tu n’as pas pu être ?

Je te donnerai la réponse lorsque…

(Ecrit par Laura Raicu, une chère amie)

Turns out,

I do have FAITH...
and I do have FRIENDS!


Ingrid Michaelson - Be OK

I Can Live

with or WITHOUT you.

Tonight

"I never took the train alone
I hated being on my own
I always took you by the hands
And say I need you...
I never wanted love to fail
I always hoped that it was real
I'd look you in the eyes
and said believe me!
And then the night becomes the day
And there’s nothing left to say
If there's nothing left to say
THEN SOMETHING'S WRONG.

And as the hands would turn with suns
I'd always say that I was yours
I'd turn and lend a smile,
To say that I'm gone.
But in a whisper I'd arrive
And dance into your life.
Like a music melody,
Like a lover's song."

Mess

Tomasso Albinoni-Adagio

“No music better conveys the agony of watching a loved one being slowly torn away from this life and the desolate finality of looking into his eyes and seeing the eternal void reflected there. It is a moment too terrible to contemplate and too awful to forget. Every resonance of it can be heard in this piece.”

Turns out,

... some girls can have all the luck, too! :)



later edit: turns out, some girls have only luck... not all of it, anyhow!

I Have Seen The Light

I have seen the light on Earth,
So I decided to be born,
To see how you're doing.
Healthy? Strong?
Are you happy?

Don't answer that, thank you.
I don't have time for answers,
I can barely have enough time for questions.

But I like it here,
It's warm and it's nice
And there's so much light
That I can see grass growing.
...
(Marin Sorescu - I have seen the light)

later edit: it's a translation I made, because I really like this poem.

Autumn Leaves

"The falling leaves drift by my window
The falling leaves of red and gold
I see your lips, the summer kisses
The sunburned hands I used to hold

Since you went away the days grow long
And soon I'll hear old winter's song
But I miss you most of all, my darling
When autumn leaves start to fall."


Eva Cassidy - Autumn leaves (jazz version)

I miss you most of all, my darling,
When autumn leaves start to fall...

Shining

Shining, thank you very much!



"Don't you let your demons pull you down... 'cause YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL!"

Three Favorite Movie Lines

for Cancer

'We all go a little mad sometimes.'
(Psycho)

'Only in the mysterious equations of love can any real logic be found.'
(A Beautiful Mind)

'I see dead people.'
(The Sixth Sense)

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

"Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs...
But Lord knows that this world is cruel,
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you.

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?"

Reality... Bites!!

Mrs Dalloway has come to cope with the fact that being a woman actually hurts, after having spent the last 6 hours trying to get some sleep while having hair curlers stuck to her head! And then, pretty soon, she'll start wearing some high heels because those are the ones that match the dress(es) she's going to wear at the religious ceremony and at the wedding party!
Well... I mean... if it's for a good cause... it's worth the sacrifice, right? :)
Meanwhile, all the best to the future newlyweds!


Shania Twain - From This Moment

We Die

"We die containing a richness of lovers and tribes, tastes we have swallowed, bodies we have plunged into and swum up as if rivers of wisdom, characters we have climbed into as if trees, fears we have hidden in as if caves. I wish for all this to be marked on my body when I am dead. I believe in such cartography -- to be marked by nature, not just to label ourselves on a map like the names of rich men and women on buildings. We are communal histories, communal books. We are not owned or monogamous in our taste or experience. All I desired was to walk upon such an earth that had no maps."

(Michael Ondaatje, The English Patient)

Same as the Blues?

"She was still hugging the cat.
'Poor slob', she said. 'Poor slob without a name. It's a little inconvenient his not having a name. But I haven't any right to give him one, he'll have to wait until he belongs to somebody. We just sort of took up by the river one day, we don't belong to each other: he's an independent, and so am I. I don't want to own anything until I know I've found the place where me and things belong together. I'm not quite sure where that is just yet. But I know what it's like. [...] It's like Tiffany's', she said. 'Not that I give a hoot about jewelry. Diamonds, yes. But it's tacky to wear diamonds before you're forty; and even that's risky. They really look right on the really old girls. Wrinkle and bones, white hair and diamonds: I can't wait. But that's not why I'm mad about Tiffany's. Listen. You know those days when you've got the mean reds?'
'Same as the blues?'
'No', she said slowly. 'No, the blues are because you're getting fat or maybe it's because it's been raining too long. You're sad, that's all. But the mean reds are horrible. You're afraid, and you sweat like hell, but you don't know what you're afraid of. Except something bad is going to happen, only you don't know what it is. You've had that feeling?'
'Quite often. Some people call it angst.'"

(Truman Capote, Breakfast at Tiffany's)

No Comment

"Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time...

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now."


Lady Antebellum - Need you now

The Heart Is An Organ Of Fire

"July 1936
There are betrayals in war that are childlike compared with our human betrayals during peace. The new lover enters the habits of the other. Things are smashed, revealed in new light. This is done with nervous or tender sentences, although the heart is an organ of fire.
A love story is not about those who lose their heart but about those who find that sullen inhabitant who, when it is stumbled upon, means the body can fool no one, can fool nothing - not the wisdom of sleep or the habit of social graces. It is a consuming of oneself and the past."

(Michael Ondaatje, The English Patient)


The English Patient

Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me

"You DO know what you're doing,
Babe, it must be ART..."

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

"Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’07
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…
I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked… You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you.
Sing.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life… the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary… what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can… don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance… even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you
should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen…"

(Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free [To Wear Sunscreen])

12.38 AM Revelation

...

"Well nothing could be sadder
Than a glass of wine, all alone
Loneliness, loneliness, it's such a WASTE OF TIME!"


Solomon Burke - Cry to Me

Wish You Were Here

"We all get at least one good wish a year. Over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more. On eyelashes, fountains, lucky stars, and every now and then, one of those wishes comes true.
So what then?
Is it is as good as we'd hoped?
Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness?
Or, do we just notice we've got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished?

We don't wish for the easy stuff. We wish for BIG THINGS. Things that are ambitious, out of reach. We wish because we need help and we're scared and we know we may be asking too much. We still wish, though, because sometimes THEY COME TRUE."

(GA, s05, ep11)



"How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here."

Fiat Lux!

"Let there be LIGHT!"
... and so, my newest project emerged!
it's called MRS DALLOWAY SAID SHE WOULD MAKE THE EARRINGS HERSELF, and YES, you can find me on THE BOOK WITH FACES!
and it has all about my most recent hobby, which is crafting earrings.
I do love everything that's shiny, and glittery, and colorful, and I do enjoy wearing them!
so... let's listen to some great music in order to celebrate the magic moment! :)

Feeling Good

"Sometimes I forget where I am and I start smiling, no reason whatsoever. I'm happy. Really happy. I get lost somewhere, in a random place, like one forgets an open book on a windowsill."

(Marin Sorescu, Iona)

One Of Those Days

it's just one of those days when I feel like I don't want to wake up, to get out of bed for a long, long time. one of those late mornings when I would just lie in bed, day-dreaming, listening to some soothing French music, to make everything bad go away.
and today is just one of those days.

They Can Drive You Crazy

'I was half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. THEY CAN DRIVE YOU CRAZY. They really can.'

(J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye)

Maybe This Time

'Maybe this time I’ll be lucky
Maybe this time HE'LL STAY...
Maybe this time for the first time
Love won’t hurry away
He will hold me fast
I’ll be home at last
Not a loser anymore
Like the last time and the time before
Everybody loves a winner
So nobody loved me
Lady peaceful
Lady happy
That’s what I long to be
Well, all the odds are, they’re in my favor
Something’s bound to begin
It’s gotta happen
Happen sometime
MAYBE THIS TIME I’LL WIN!'

Run

"I'll sing it one last time for you
Then I really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done...

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
EVEN IF YOU CANNOT HEAR MY VOICE
I'LL BE RIGHT BESIDE YOU, DEAR!

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do."



this is the cowardly thing to do. and the easiest. i'm sorry, but that's the way it goes, apparently.

Everything's Not Lost?

"I was gonna love you till the end of all daytime and I was gonna keep all our secret signs and our lullabies. I was made to believe that our love would grow old...
We were gonna live in a treehouse and make babies, and we were gonna bury our ex-lovers and their ghosts... Baby, we WERE made of gold."

¡Que sera, sera!

"When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich?
Here's what she said to me:

¡Que sera, sera!
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
¡Que sera, sera!
What will be, will be."

Doris Day - Que Sera Sera

The Last Thing I Need Is YOU

Well, so far, today is quite a BAD DAY! yet another one of those shitty days that seem endless. (and it's only one o'clock.)



just as the song goes:
it started raining with cats and dogs. the exam went bad. raining again. the umbrella broke. a car splashed me. where can i find a cab in this goddamn city? i forgot to pay my bill. all alone, in the middle of nowhere. i don't know streets. where the fuck am i? found myself lost. lost in translation, maybe?

Black Holes And Revelations

'Today’s gonna be a, a less bad day, I can feel it. Sometimes I wake up and I just know everything’s gonna be... less bad.'

I Will Be Chasing the Starlight...

"Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die...

STARLIGHT
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore."

Sonnet d'automne

"Ils me disent, tes yeux, clairs comme le cristal:
«Pour toi, bizarre amant, quel est donc mon mérite?»
— Sois charmante et tais-toi! Mon coeur, que tout irrite,
Excepté la candeur de l'antique animal,

Ne veut pas te montrer son secret infernal,
Berceuse dont la main aux longs sommeils m'invite,
Ni sa noire légende avec la flamme écrite.
Je hais la passion et l'esprit me fait mal!

Aimons-nous doucement. L'Amour dans sa guérite,
Ténébreux, embusqué, bande son arc fatal.
Je connais les engins de son vieil arsenal:

Crime, horreur et folie! — Ô pâle marguerite!
Comme moi n'es-tu pas un soleil automnal,
Ô ma si blanche, ô ma si froide Marguerite?"

Charles Baudelaire

(thanks to a dear friend for reminding me about Baudelaire's beauty, in his all-mighty French language!)

Biological Clock Ticking

'I am not excluding anything and I’m not gonna apologize for it. And this isn’t about me wanting a man either. This is about me wanting a partner, OK? A partner to go through life with. And since I happen to be heterosexual, well that limits the field to men, at least if I wanna have sex. And I do! I like sex! And if that makes me weak, tough! Then I wanna be weak. I want a partner! I want sex! I-I want a house with furniture! I wanna have a baby! I wanna have all of it! I wanna get fat! I wanna wear maternity dresses! I wanna stick my legs up in stirrup, take two shots of potassium and spit the little thing right out between my thighs and then have him suck on my breasts with daddy standing right there the whole time pointing to the camcorder, OK? That is what I want! And instead of waiting for it to happen, I’M GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN!'

(applause)

Flaubert's Parrot

"Books say: She did this because. Life says: She did this.
Books are where things are explained to you; life is where things aren't. I'm not surprised some people prefer books. Books make sense of life. The only problem is that the lives they make sense of are other people's lives, NEVER YOUR OWN."

(Julian Barnes, Flaubert's Parrot)

Other Side Of The World

Though we live in the same city, we might as well be worlds apart. I don't know why, but it feels like you're on the other side of the world to me.



"I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me"

Post-Weekend Revelation

she is back in black. surprisingly enough (for those who knew her, and herself) she fell in love with the mountains!
and she can't wait to get her ass back there, and soon! :)
so... great trip, gorgeous friends, superb landscapes and an amazingly spontaneous rock concert were the recipe for the time of her life!

... And So It Is

It turned out to be more than a movie. For me, at least. It had some lines that actually spoke to me at a level that no one managed to reach in a while. The same thing happened approximately 2 years ago, while trying to get myself back on track after yet another fucked up relationship. Then, the rescuing boat was called THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT. I actually saw the movie with "the one" at that time, and when I started crying at the end of it, he did not realize that it meant something more to me. That movie's idea was: LET GO, MOVE ON. Everyone kept telling me that, but one thing's for sure with me: I don't believe what others tell me. I always do things by my own rules. And if I chose to let go, I let go.
Same thing happened tonight. Went to see INCEPTION. I wasn't expecting the thing that happened, but I had quite a lovely surprise. Same situation, different guy, same message. Too stubborn to see the obvious for myself, but thank God for movies seen at the best timing ever!

Movie Marathon (I)

Been sick as a dog for some days now, so I figured what better reason to have a movie marathon than this one? :)
Here are my movies, with the trailers and reason of choice:

- Far and Away (1992)
Just for Tom Cruises' boxing skills. OK, for his accent, too.
trailer: here


- Cat on a Hot Tin Roof (1958)
Paul Newman. A young Paul Newman, with a drinking problem. Paul Newman. Oh, did I mention PAUL NEWMAN?
trailer: here

- Annie Get Your Gun (1950)
I love musicals. Oh, and the "anything-you-can-do-I-can-do-better" :)

- Fight Club (1999)
Welcome to Fight Club. The first rule of Fight Club is: you do not talk about Fight Club. The second rule of Fight Club is: you DO NOT talk about Fight Club!

-Los Lunes al Sol (2002)
Great movie. Javier Bardem before being the ultimate Spanish discovery.
trailer: here

- Ondine (2009)
not stating the obvious Colin-Farrell-love reason.

- Four Weddings and a Funeral (1994)
there's no one in this world to say better the word FUCK than Hugh Grant.
trailer: here

- North By Northwest (1959)
Alfred Hitchcock is reason enough. And Cary Grant.
trailer: here

- The Joneses (2009)
David Duchovny!
DAVID DUCHOVNY!!
trailer: here

Relationships

Relationships:
There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just FABULOUS.

(later edit: source unknown)

Capote Revelation

"I suppose you think I'm very brazen. Or très fou. Or something. [...] Yes, you do. Everybody does. I don't mind. It's useful."

(Truman Capote's Breakfast at Tiffany's)

Men = Shoes (Did Anyone Else See It This Way?)

Men are like Shoes:

the ones that we like, cost a tidy penny.
only a few of them deserve to be cherished more than one season.
the cozy ones don't attract us, and the ones that do, don't want to get in.
one is enough only for Cinderella.
some of them deserve to be left at the door.
the ones with heels hate us [women].
the world judges you based on them.
they must be polished, but first, you have to spit on them.
they must be tread down.

(Humorous, indeed. Men, do forgive us. We sometimes feel a certain need to mock the male species)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

So no one told me life was gonna be this way
My job's a joke, I'm broke, my love life's DOA
It's like I'm always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been my day, my week, my month, or even my year...




(welcome, to my newest obsession. and it's just because i miss 'em.)

Unintended

'YOU
could be my
UNINTENDED
choice to live my life extended
YOU
could be the one I'll always
LOVE

...

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending
BROKEN pieces of the
LIFE
I HAD BEFORE.'

Truth/Something Beautiful?

'I can be who you want me to be
But do you want me?'

Go! Went... Gone (sigh)

[...]
From too much love of living,
From hope and fear set free,
We thank with brief thanksgiving
Whatever gods may be
That no man lives for ever;
That dead men rise up never;
That even the weariest river
Winds somewhere safe to sea.
[...]

"The Garden of Proserpine"
by A.C. Swinburne

(A chapter ends, another one shall begin, and pretty soon...
Until we meet again, YOU shall always be in my thoughts: John, Mer & Alex)

9 Deadly Words Used By A Woman

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually end in 'Fine'.

4. Go Ahead
This is a dare, not a permission. DO NOT DO IT!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of Nothing).

6. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. It means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question or faint. Just say 'You're welcome'. (I do wish to add in a clause here - This is true unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome', that will bring on a 'Whatever'.)

8. Whatever
This is the woman's way of saying F-YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but she is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response, please refer to #3.

(And they say women don't have a sense of humor!:))

12:38 AM Revelation

I don't need a boyfriend, I need a Greek chorus!

(via The Last Station)

Anger Issues

"Don't tell me what to feel. All my fuckin' life people have been telling me I do things wrong, I'm always the fucking asshole, and I look around and I see everyone else is infinitely more fucked- up than I am."

(Californication)

Where the fuck did the happiness I had yesterday and the day before gone to?!
Would somebody just leave me the fuck alone!!
Identity crisis and anger management issues all together.
This is sick, just sick. And you don't even listen. You never listen to the shit I say. And if one of these days I won't be coming back, I so not want to hear any of the bullshit talk you'll give me about growing up and facing my responsibilities.
I need air.

The Nicest Thing

I'm happy. With a capital H and a capital everything!
H-A-P-P-Y.
I saw a sign today, and I know, I know. You'll say it's silly of me to believe in signs, but it was so obvious, I swear!
There is an old believe that, should you see two storks in a nest, at the top of a post, you won't spend the summer alone. And I did see. It appeared twice. So if I just thought I saw something the first time, I did get a reassurance, the second time. And taking into consideration that I did have a shitty week, this sign sure made my day! I wish everyone would be as happy as I am right this instant!



'I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.'

The War Of The Sexes (part 04)

Women believe that, if a cat runs away from home, it's because of lack of affection.
Women believe that, if a dog runs away from home, it's because of lack of affection.
Women believe that, if a woman runs away from home, it's because of lack of affection.
Women believe that, if a man runs away from home, it's because all men are pigs.

Well how 'bout that?

Vocabulary Lesson (3)

There are only ten times in history when the F*word has been considered acceptable for use. They are as follows:

1. "Scattered f*cking showers, my ass!"
-- Noah, 4314 B.C.

2. "How the f*ck did you work that out?"
-- Pythagoras, 126 B.C.

3. "You want WHAT on the f*cking ceiling?"
-- Michelangelo, 1566.

4. "Where did all those f*cking Indians come from?"
-- Gen. Armstrong Custer, 1877.

5. "What the f*ck do you mean, we are Sinking?"
-- Capt. E.J. Smith of RMS Titanic, 1912.

6. "It does so f*cking look like her!"
-- Picasso, 1926.

7. "Where the f*ck am I?"
-- Amelia Earhart, 1937.

8. "Any f*cking idiot could understand that."
-- Einstein, 1938.

9. "What the f*ck was that?"
-- Mayor Of Hiroshima, 1945.

10. "Geez, I didn't think they'd get this f*cking mad."
-- Saddam Hussein, 2003.

Kite (Graduation Day!)

...
'Who's to say where the wind will take you
Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
Don't wanna see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

In summer I can taste the salt in the sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on a breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me.'

and now one of my favorite pieces from U2:

Piece of Mind

'What have I got? Really? Some money in my pocket, some nice threads, and I'm single. Yeah... unattached, free as a bird... I don't depend on nobody and nobody depends on me... MY LIFE'S MY OWN. But I don't have peace of mind.
And if you don't have that, you've got nothing. So... what's the answer? That's what I keep asking myself. What's it all about? You know what I mean?'

(Alfie, 2004)

Bad Timing

'Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same.
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

You can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin
Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him..."
...
A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Find a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"...'



When am I to realize, it was just that the time was wrong?

In The Still Of The Night

For some nights now I keep hearing this song in my head. It's an old song from one of my personal favorites, 'Dirty Dancing'.
Here it is, and I hope...
No, never mind!
YOU won't hear it, but I'll be thinking of you while this song will be on repeat!
So goodnight, my someone! Goodnight!

Tonight's Revelation

They say I'm young
And I don't know...
I won't find out
Until I grow...
(Grow what?! A moustache?! :D)

Happy Birthday, to ME!

Shh... It's Showtime!

I am hours away until my 22nd birthday.
I don't know how I'm supposed to behave. Should I be glad? I'm getting... NO! Not old, but more experienced, right?! That's how it's called nowadays.
Still, I'm having this vague feeling that the inner child is letting go. Or that, hell no!, I might be kicking her so that I can go and live my adult life!
I think my biggest wish for my up-coming 22nd B'day is to remain as much kid as possible. And to find HIM. Oh, wouldn't that be a thrill?
I think that, as childish as I may act, I still want that feeling. The rush. The emotion. The butterflies in the stomach. Heart pounding... absolutely can't swallow... that sort of thing.
... and years after, I want to be able to say that the phrase most people know, "Be careful what you wish for, 'cause you might just get it!" was true in my case.
So... "Here's to the guy who'll win me, the losers who've lost me, and the lucky bastards I've yet to meet."

Today's Revelation

"I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them DOES REJOICE. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone... I guess I just miss my friend."

(Shawshank Redemption)



for you, M!

Seven Seconds

"In life we are taught that there are 7 deadly sins. We all know the big ones: gluttony, pride, lust. But the thing you don't hear much is anger.
Maybe it's because we think anger is not that dangerous, that we can control it.
My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit.
Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think.
After all, when it comes to destructive behavior, IT DID MAKE THE TOP SEVEN.

So what makes ANGER different from the six other deadly sins?
It's pretty simple, really...
You give into a sin like ENVY or PRIDE and you only hurt yourself.
Try LUST or COVETING and you'll only hurt yourself and one or two others.
But anger... anger is the worst... the mother of all sins. Not only can anger drive you over the edge, but when it does, you can take an awful lot of people with you."

(GA, s02, ep25)

The War Of The Sexes (part 03)

(Make Love, Not War!)

The Perfect Wedding (absolutely gorgeous, I'd definitely say "I Do")
So... In search of the guy who loves beer and football (and my arse, of course :))

Nothing Gold Can Stay

"Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay."

(a gorgeous poem by Robert Frost)

The War Of The Sexes (part 02)

(Make Love, Not War!)

Men vs Women



Yeeees, I caaaaaaan!! :))

Tonight's Revelation

Since I recently transformed into a workaholic, I might as well be an alcoholic too, tonight!

Motto:
"Wine is fine, but whiskey's quicker
Suicide is slow with liquor!"
(Ozzy Osbourne dixit)

Why

'This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead
This is the joy that's seldom spread
These are the tears...
The tears I shed
This is the fear
This is the dread
These are THE CONTENTS OF MY HEAD.'



(I tell myself too many times "Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut?!")

If

'If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!'

(by Rudyard Kipling - with a special Thanks, MOM!)

Today Is MY DAY!

'Congratulate me!
Today is MY DAY.
I'm off to Great Places!
I'm off and away!
I have brains in my head.
I have feet in my shoes
I can steer myself
any direction I choose.
...
OH!
THE PLACES I’LL GO!
I’ll be on my way up!
I’ll be seeing great sights!
I’ll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
...
I will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked.
A place I could sprain both my elbow and chin!
Do I dare to stay out? Do I dare to go in?
How much can I lose? How much can I win?
And IF I go in, should I turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid I will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
I can get so confused
that I’ll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…
…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
...
NO!
That's not for me!
...
Oh, the places I’ll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. There are games to be won.
And the magical things I can do with that ball
will make me the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! I’ll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching me win on TV.
Except when they don’t.
Because, sometimes, they won’t.
I’m afraid that some times
I’ll play lonely games too.
Games I can’t win
’cause I’ll play against myself.
All Alone!
Whether I like it or not,
Alone will be something
I’ll be quite a lot.
...
So…
be my name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O’Shea,
I’re off to Great Places!
Today is my day!
My mountain is waiting.
So… I'm on my way!'

(Cover made after Dr. Seuss' Oh, The Places You'll Go!)

You Were The Little Rock In My Shoe

Yes, you heard me. You heard me right. I just figured it out. Not now, but this morning, coming back from church. It’s a something that seems to be quite relieving, this going to church thing. I was walking quietly, with a million of thoughts in my head... mostly of you, unfortunately for me... and the thing is... well, I stopped. In the middle of the sidewalk, I stopped. I took off my left shoe, and I got that little rock that was bothering me. It seems that I realized I had it there only this morning, how odd! It must have been bothering me for months, because I had a little mark on my foot. So small I barely noticed at home, when I checked the damage.
I kept on thinking that this was what you were too.
You were the little rock in my shoe.
My left shoe, to be more specific.
(It didn’t seem to have anything to do with the heart, but that’s the way I saw it.)
So in my desperate attempt to get rid of all the memories that seem to haunt me (these days more than ever, I don’t seem to get it why… hmm... maybe it's because I bought a book last week, and its title made me think of you), I came to this answer: you were the little rock that bothered me for months. And I used to like you there, didn't even notice you… until today! But this must be a big step forward, right? I mean... I must be figuring out some things about myself and maybe even about you.
So it’s a step forward, that’s how I choose to see it.
And another medicine, a painful one, but still a medicine for my recovery, is you ignoring me. I know, I know… I’m too much of a coward to just spill it out, so I really hope you'll understand it yourself. And come to respect my decision. Because God knows I don’t want any more male best friends. I’m sick and tired of being a guy’s best friend, especially if I’m in love with the idiot, and he doesn’t even notice it.
Anyhow...
Goodbye, dear little rock in the left shoe!
I hope I won’t miss you!

Not yours,
(at least not anymore)
Me

A Change Is Gonna Come

'Change.
We don't like it.
We fear it, but we can't stop it from coming.
We either adapt to change or we get left behind.
It hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn't is lying, but here's the truth: sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same.
And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good.
Sometimes CHANGE IS EVERYTHING.'

(GA, s04, ep1)

Try Walking In My Shoes

'Now I'm not looking for absolution,
Or forgiveness for the things I do.
But before you come to any conclusions,
Try WALKING IN MY SHOES.'

Vocabulary Lesson (2)

'I love the French language.
I have sampled every language, French is my favourite - fantastic language, especially to curse with.
Nom de Dieu de putain de bordel de merde de saloperies de connards d'enculé de ta mère.
It's like wiping your arse with silk, I love it.'

(The Matrix Reloaded)

*inspired to remember this, after my first French exam this semester!

Vocabulary Lesson (1)

Thanks to my newest friend, I stumbled across something particularly interesting!
Don't you just love the English language?
Enjoy! :)



(my personal favorite usage of the word "fuck" is in the phrase "Fuck the fucking fuckers!" but then again, that's just my choice)

Biding My Time

'Wasting my time,
Resting my mind
And I'll never pine
For the sad days and the bad days
When we was workin' from nine to five.

And if you don't mind
I'll spend my time
Here by the fire side
In the warm light and the love in his eyes.'




(perfect song for a rainy Saturday morning!)

Time Has Come Today

'Time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us it seems to play tricks. Slowing down... hovering... until it freezes. Leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other.
Time flies.
Time waits for no man.
Time heals all wounds.
All any of us wants is more time.
Time to stand up.
Time to grow up.
Time to let go.
TIME.'

(GA, s03, ep01)